watching tv shows are triggers for me recently. people getting high makes me miss it. I don’t really miss getting drunk, just high. I miss blacking out, not remembering things, feeling dizzy, feeling like I’m floating, that kind of stuff. high off what, you may ask? weed. pills. (orally and nasally…yeah that isn’t a word, but snorting.) huffing. I would take any pill I saw back in the day. just recently I realized it was a drug problem that I had. I always took way too many pills . it’s fucked my body up, and caused permanent damage.but right now I’m trying to focus on my sobriety, because the man I love is a recovering addict. I need to be sober for him. I want us to have a happy sober life together. forever. what do I do about the urges though?
people talking shit about my boyfriend, instantly puts me in a bad mood and usually results in me crying.so just stop.